It’s Mom again. I’m missing you, again, always. There are so many activities that we did together. And I find it impossible to most of them without you. I can’t recapture the joy that I had when I could share activities with you. Taking Pepper for a walk is even hard to do. But I know that he loves his time outside. So, every once in a while, I pop him in his stroller, and we take a walk to the dog park. More often, we go out back and he lounges on the patio or wanders around looking for good places to hide his greenies.
He’s such a little pumpkin. I know he’s not fond of his insulin shots, but he holds very still until I’ve finished. Then he waits for his reward of cheese. Sometimes he has to remind me he needs a shot (I think it is because his internal clock is telling him it’s cheese time.) But, maybe, he’s asking for his insulin. Right? He’s funny about meals, he seems to ask for food then he’ll leave it out until he’s ready to eat it. Sometimes, I have to throw it out because it has dried out completely. I think it’s his way of telling me that he is in charge. He’ll do what he wants when he’s ready – not when I’m ready.
I’ve been doing my main activities of listening to books (on Alexa) and working on stained glass. I’m soldering my Hairy Coo and Calf, a picture I took when we were in Scotland. I finished side one today and figured the second side would be awful – but I was pleasantly surprised to find that, the back side looks good. I took more time looking at all the different parts of the piece, and decided that I needed to make some modifications. I had many pieces that had multiple joints, and both pieces have to match almost exactly. Unfortunately, they didn’t match. So, I had to revise the pattern, and make it less complex. Otherwise, I would have had really awful intersections.
Tomorrow, I have a dentist appointment and a couple of hours of volunteer time at the library. Other than that, I’ll be able to work on my glass piece and spend time with Peppy while I listen to a fantasy book. Those seem to be my favorites – I’m looking for escapism.
I think I’m going to see if they can get someone else to video tape the book discussions. They are all depressing stories. I have no idea why the books chosen are about bitter people or horrendous times in history. They actually chose two science fiction books – 1984 by Orwell another dystopian story about big brother and who knows what else. Yuck. Give me a book with magic or humor any day of the week. Just – no more “literature” with unsympathetic characters with strange plots and sad endings.
I miss talking with you, walking with you, crafting, being with you and hugging you good night. I look forward to the day when we can be together again or failing that when I don’t have to know that you are gone.
Goodnight my sweet girl. I love you so very much.
Mom