Good morning my wonderful daughter. It has been over three years since we lost you. You were the center of our universe. You still are. You were so special – kind, sweet, intelligent, beautiful, wonderful…
I’m still trying to find reasons to keep going without you. It’s so hard sometimes. I find that I’m constantly in search of distractions, ways of keeping busy. Books and crafts keep me occupied. Even so, I miss you, hundreds of times each day. You were so amazing. You earned you PhD, you owned your home, you were an asset to the company you worked for. And you cared about others in your quiet way.
It seems to me that the world lost a wonderful, kind, compassionate soul when you died.
In the early days, just after you died, even breathing hurt. I wanted the grief to magically go away. What did I need to learn, what did I need to do in order to get past the unbelievable pain? The simple answer is, I can’t.
The more complicated answer is that I have to hold onto the love that you gave every day you were alive. I have to find a way to continue the kindness you shared. I hope that somehow, you can help me to achieve this.
We miss you, every day, in so very many ways. —Love you, love you, always. -Mom and Dad